Dear girl who feels alone. Dear girl who feels misunderstood. Dear girl who smiles in public because she was asked one too many times if she was in a bad mood. Dear girl who walks into church with her phone in one hand and a coffee in another. In order to avoid high fives. Dear girl who responds to polite greeters with a quick “hey” and “I’m fine.” Dear girl who quickly rushes to her usual seat and meets most expectations. Dear girl who hoped she’d be noticed by people other than the ones who volunteered to notice her. Dear girl who goes straight home and cries in the bathtub and feels like an idiot for ever thinking people should notice her. Dear girl who lies awake at night staring at her ceiling fan because there doesn’t seem to be a single person on the face of the earth that gets her. She has acquaintances. She has people she sees every week at small group. But no one that really truly gets her for her.
Well, lonely girl. You are not the only one that feels this way. I have felt just like you. And much more recently than I’d like to admit.
The thing that I’ve been learning. And re-learning. And realizing that I’ve been trying to learn my whole life is that, living for community with people can never replace living in communion with Jesus.
Even just a few weeks ago at church, my pastor did a message on valuing God’s approval over the approval of man. I loved the message, but left church disheartened that my friends hadn’t invited me to go do something after.
Humans cannot fill the God-sized place in your soul.
You will always feel lonely if you are not spending enough time with the friend that sticks closer than a brother.
The Girl in the Church Pants.
Galatians 1:10 “For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.”